Nope, autistic burnout. Is the reason I stayed, for someone genuinely struggling.
But now I’m out, never ever again.

I didn’t like the situation, but I still did it because I liked the relationship. I see where is the misunderstanding now. My bad, and thank you

They would stop replying to any message, be overall unreachable, ghosting me when we planned a getaway at that date.
I assumed they needed space. I’m fine with respecting boundaries, even if it stings nonetheless when you miss them.

But stopping literally existing out of the blue?
How much time do you need? Days, weeks? Should I wait for you to contact me? Should we cancel this weekend?
No way to get an answer. No, nothing.
Just toss a coin and try to find out.

Just google it.

Edit: Not Safe For Life

Don’t know whether they do, but have you heard of Liberapay?

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This is gold advice. Thank you.

Without going into too much details, I’d say that I am in a situation reeaaaaaaaaaally close to yours. You may feel invisible, but I see you. Thank you for sharing.

I will give it a try. Thanks for sharing

Oooh I agree, this is some actual dirt

Brave’s marketing has always made me uneasy, but it was more like a vague thought. This why I’m intrigued by your opinion. Do you have examples of their “problematic” management?

Self-hoster of a searxNG here. With docker, your can spin your own in 1 minute top. I’ll never go back to any other search engine, this is the best (imho).

We do

This is why I said it should never be done outside of a VM or sandbox. But you are right, this is playing with fire haha.

Do you have a virtual machine, or a filesystem that you could mess with?
A good project idea would be to manipulate files on your system. Sort them, duplicate them, add programmatically one line to their content. The possibilities are plenty and you can see the result of your code.
Besides that, look for tutorial repositories on Github (or codeberg.org).
Last but not least, VSCode is my personal favorite, but you could check out PyCharm for beginning, as it has more features out of the box.

I started working out at a park nearby in the morning. I kinda hate it on the moment, but I reward myself for the last 15 minutes or so, with some creativity.
Freestyle dance (??!), kicking around, doing the cartwheel, random moves. All the while listening to old school hip hop and pretending I’m a hot shot, haha.
Those last minutes are amazing.

I will DM you the YT channels I follow.

do you know of any good resources about improving pain tolerance?

Working out and cold showers are enough on that matter imo

This is exactly what you said. Workout and cold showers.
Even if a cold shower is once a day, it is enough. Willpower is like a muscle, you don’t have to exert it constantly, but regularly.
As for working out, you don’t have to like it, to make it. This is the hard pill to swallow, but struggling is part of it, at least in the beginning.
What I find helpful personally, is to watch a coaching video. You follow the moves of the vlogger at the same pace, and only pause when you can absolutely not take it anymore. I end up cursing at the video and hating my life on the spot.

I recon that it helped me have more control on myself (like pain tolerance). But as for the ADHD you describe, I am not sure I saw any improvement personally.

Reminds me of the movie “Nobody knows”, also from a real story, also Japanese.
Whatsoever, anything relating to kids’ suffering is…it’s hard.

I see all your movies and I give you Oranus
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XRQeTojVZlI
You’re welcome