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Chester Bennington of Linkin Park low-key destroyed me. I didn’t even hear about it when it happened due to a big storm taking out my power for a week. It wasn’t until 4 or 5 days after the news hit everyone else when I finally found out.

You can say whatever you want about Linkin Park, but Chester was fucking talented and its still so upsetting to me to think about it.

And then last year, they made Chester die again when they brought on a Scientologist to be the new lead singer. Now Linkin Park as a whole is dead to me.

When I was about 17 was looking at several full pages of names of people who died in 9/11 when looking at a news paper and started crying

I cry sometimes when I see what is happening to the people and babies of the world

I cried when those women in Sudan were at a hospital and rebels showed up to rape and murder them then trapped them inside the clinic and burned it down

The world is a sad place with so much need for mourning

Adam Schlesinger, a likely preventable death in this selfish fucking country. He gave so many beautiful things to the world while he was here.

Never cried, but Rik Mayall hit hard, and Lemmy always seemed immortal so it was a shock when he went.

Anthony Bourdain hit me pretty hard. I was a huge fan starting with Kitchen Confidential and ate up basically everything he produced. But more than just his content, which was great, his worldview and philosophy really spoke to me. It was cynical and angry, without being aimless or shallow. He seemed to be doing something different from everyone else and writing his own rules in a way which had no parallels anywhere in mainstream media.

Grant Imahara from mythbusters.

Sir Terry Pratchett. Actually, probably counts as multiple because the opening to The Shepherds Crown makes me bawl like a child, and it’s pretty much a step-by-step guide for mourning.

Discworld has been my comfort series for a long time. I have read most of the books more times than I can count. Spent months tearing through multiple a day.

Of course, his condition was known amongst the fans, we had all known it was going to be sooner than later, but it felt like a long chapter of my life was closed. I had looked forward to every release, cherished them. The man’s work had been beside me through some of the hardest times, always bringing a smile back to my face.

You’re very accustomed to your world and don’t want any discontinuity. Change is depressing because it reveals the impermanence of everything where rather pretend like it isn’t. Thats my reason :)

I’ve cried over historical figures and the tragedy I found in their story but never a modern person

When Chomsky dies its going to fuck me up HARD. I’m already mentally preparing for it, but that dude has been such an amazing human, he’s responded to so many emails, signed so many of my books, and lectured on things in such a way that I’ve learned a lot

Nah, but a couple surprised me with how much they saddened me because I’d always thought it was kind of stupid to get genuinely upset about the deaths of celebrities you don’t know. Sometimes your cognitive opinions take a backseat without your permission and you just feel actually mournful about someone who has so little direct connection and who’s worldly contributions are almost always in the entertainment space. For me that was David Bowie and Trevor Moore. Both of these surprised me because it’s not like I was a hardcore David Bowie fan so it didn’t feel like that death should have hit me particularly hard and Trevor, I still can’t figure out why that’d upset me so much. I mean I loved his sketch comedy but I’d largely forgotten about him at the time, I think it might have something to do with him being so young as well as all the laughs he’d given us.

David Bowie. I still miss him a lot. I usually don’t even really know the names and faces of bands I like, and I wasn’t even a big knower of his music, but when I heard he died I cried non stop for a day and a night. He was really something else, this crazy force, changing the whole discourse in music and stardom multiple times in his life. What an awe inspiring character. I wonder who could ever take his place, really.

Mac Miller for me. We were the same age and his music resonated with me a lot. I understood the drugs, depression, etc.

For a while, I had thought “I could have been successful like him, if i had applied myself”. Not music, but other ways. It had felt like he was everything I could have been.

But then his he died and I realized that I had gotten out of that world (drugs and partying). And that I was the successful one. I had a house, a job I love, a wonderful wife, etc.

I’m not rich. I’m not always happy. I regularly think about my addictions. But Im clean. I’m sober. I’m intelligent. I have a good life.

If I didn’t figure out how to step away from that life, Im sure I would have OD’d. Mac’s death hit me hard, because I went from “that could have been me” to “that could have been me”

Not cried, but Trevor Moore’s death shook me as that was the first time someone I enjoyed the work of died while I was still expecting to see more work from them in the future.